Bulan ini bulan ter deg2an of the year deh. Tetiba si bulan engga dateng. Berakibat gue jadi blingsatan, gue hamil gt?? Beberapa kali cek pake test pack hasilnya emang negatif tp ko ya tetep ndak dapet mens. Suami dan temen2 sempet curiga kalo gue hamil beneran. Seneng seneng engga si karna saat ini gue belom siap punya anak lg. Tp gue jg seneng aja kl bs ngasi adik buat neng butet.
Dan doa gue terkabul,hari ini gue mens dong. Artinya gue ga hamil dong? Yeeeayy!!tapi ko sedih? Gue mikir jangan2 sebenernya gue udh hamil tp karna gue udh koar2 ga mau hamil dl jadinya malah dicabut lg bibitnya trua jd mens. Okeh,sedih banget ga si ibaratnya lo dikasi duit tp karna lo gengsi trus itu duit ditarik balik.. isnt it sad?
And so I wrote a letter to my un sucessful baby to be. Kaya gini kira2
Dear my baby,
Maaf ya nak,mungkin kamu sedih waktu tau ibu gembira karna mens dibandingkan engga mens.
I know you will sad that you were seems unwanted. Tell you what, deep down inside me too but I do hope that you were appear inside my womb. A little voice in my head hope to see you on the next visit to the obs. But it is not. My wish to not have you is bigger than that voice. Today I get my period and it means you were not there kid.
Promise you kid, when the time is come I would never take you for granted. I would not let you unwanted. I love you from now till our meeting in the future. Till then,please be nice.
Okeh..udh cukup yah curhatan emak2 pms ini.. darn yoy hormones!
